i am currently on a business trip for a trade show in another city.
as i'm walking to the convention center, i run into 2 jw's preaching.
one is about mid 60s the other probably mid 30's.
Good job, maybe you got them to think a little bit. There is no honorable way out of JWs.
I'd have thrown in, "she made her decision to be a JW at age 12. Should a person be held hostage their entire life to a decision they made in early adoescence?"
i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
apognophos, the need ran both ways i guess. That's what i've learned. I needed her to need me. And now I don't feel needed, at least not as much (I still don't know who is going to step in and show her how her smarphone works, or how her computer works, or give her financial advice, etc.)
i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
You know, i look back at my comments on this site from before the big breakup, and I seem somewhat collected. Everything i've posted post-breakup has been mad ravings.
I've really lost it since I broke up with my girlfriend. It has triggered a very deep state of anxiety, hopelessness, and depression that is not getting better. I don't know what to do.
I went to the doctor about the sleep issues, got an Rx. I thought I was ok last night so I didn't take it....wrong. I'll take it tonight regardless.
there are people who are pessimistic, optimistic, cynical or whatever.
i've noticed that ever since my sister became a jw she's become very pessimistic about life now (present time).
i love and care about her but her pessimism sometimes brings me down (emotionally).
It's confirmation bias, and every sensational or negative news event gives them fuel for the fire.
That confirmation bias is difficult to shake off. I find that even though I've been out of JWism for almost 12 years, that news stories concerning climate change or whatever else instantly put me back right back into that JW mindset.
Thing is, what if we really are wrecking the biosphere? What if antibiotic-resistant bacteria really is a horrible human disaster in the making? What if the US, and world, economies are on the verge of a complete implosion?
I'm absolutely terrified of what the future holds. Beyond terrified. Like, I want out of this life, big time. I think that the JW line that "humanity will self-destruct without divine intervention" is so absolutely true. The only difference between me and them is that I don't have a hope for divine intervention, so all I see is collapse, death, destruction, devastation for the future.
I wish I knew how to break out of this. I'm really starting to seriously consider doing something to myself that would make it so that the future isn't something that I'll have to witness.
there are people who are pessimistic, optimistic, cynical or whatever.
i've noticed that ever since my sister became a jw she's become very pessimistic about life now (present time).
i love and care about her but her pessimism sometimes brings me down (emotionally).
Dang wtwizard. Got my apocalypse anxiety all kicked up.
i am terrified of what the future will bring. Beyond terrified.
thoughts?.
Abadaddy i feel a quiet and sometimes not-so-quiet desperation every day. ive managed to cope with the loss of certainty so far, but it seems to be getting harder, not easier. i wish I didn't have so much anxiety. JWism freed me from that anxiety.
thoughts?.
Hey longhairgal, I was one of those naive young "dopes" too. I think that having a dramatic conversion, true-believer type of experience that ends in disillusionment brings it's own set of issues that we probably spend the remainder of our lives sorting out.
thoughts?.
for me that freedom has been a double-edged sword. The strong group identity and sense of purpose are aspects of it that I've sorely missed. Most of all, JWism gave me a temporary reprieve from the death terror that I've been experiencing since I was a teenager.
i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
It's not getting better. The guilt, anxiety, insomnia, depression are choking the life right out of me and I don't know what to do. At the therapist now. Will bring up the subject of meds.
i can't take this loss.
for people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, jwism is a powerful sedative.. but really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense.
living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.. death is natural.
it can be painful, sudden, or both.
I've read about Argentina.
I can only imagine all too vividly what a similar financial collapse would mean for the USA.
It's time to get out of this world, seriously. Who in their right freaking mind wants to live to see what's coming????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
